Title: birthing

Gender: Male

Age: 49

Sun Sign: Libra

Location: Los Angeles, CA

Hello. My name is Mathew. I live in Los Angeles with my beautiful wife, Nola, and our youngest daughter, Kaylin. (Our other two daughters are grown and on their own in Canada.)

So, what to say about myself?

Well, given my long-standing relationship with the world of spirit, here follows some autobiographical highlights (with an obvious skew towards the mystical):

My journey into the world of the unseen principally began in 1982 when as a 21 year old agnostic (and rigid adherant to the scientific method), my beliefs were radically altered one day as a result of a surprising encounter with a ghost .

A year later (oddly, almost to the day), a quasi-NDE (for lack of a more fitting label) left me with sudden awareness of sentient spirit beings and telepathic communication.

A year later (again, oddly, almost to the day), a beautiful celestial being materialized in a room with me in broad daylight and infused me with love and understanding that once and for all put an end to my agnosticism (and many other beliefs, lol). It was truly a mind-blowing, heart-expanding, words-can-never-do-justice experience! And yet, as incredible and uplifting as it was, when no additional visitations (or mystical experiences of any kind) occurred in the days, weeks, months and years that followed – two decades in fact – a sense of burden developed – like there was something I was supposed to do as a result of those three mystical experiences (particularly the celestial visitation), only I didn't know what.

After a time, it seemed prudent to forget the past and move on with my life. But it wasn't easy – especially when between freelance work assignments, I couldn't help but remember the nagging sense I once had that there was something I needed to do but didn't know what. Then, not being able to solve this dilemma, additional negative thinking  would undermine my self-worth and self-esteem – telling me I was the wrong person to have been blessed with those three mystical experiences because clearly I wasn't smart enough to figure out the point. Thus, with too much spare time on my hands, I habitually descended into depressive states (feeling like a prisoner to a life that wasn't mine, that I didn't belong in the world, that I was a stranger living in a strange land). These depressive states would usually persist  for three weeks to a month until finally, for reasons I never knew, I summoned the strength to distract myself through binge reading (or another freelance job magically appeared) – and thus, my unresolved feelings were put-off until the next period of down-time (haha, lterally, “down” time).

Well, this cycle of distraction/depression/distraction went on for 23 years (yes, my wife and children are saints and I am blessed!) until finally, in 1999, a spirit guide introduced himself one day through stream of consciousness writing and thus began an extraordinary chapter in my life where I was able to consciously channel guidance whenever I needed it. Also, I seemed to be more open to subconscious influence as it was during this period that I was guided to participate in a very simple exercise that unexpectedly brought about a major opening in my heart chakra (mostly on the frequency of forgiveness of self and others). Soon after, my heart opened further to the truth of Oneness, and within that awakening I began to understand some of the dynamics concerning the potential for greatness that exists within each and every one of us. I decided to call the path to that greatness The Life Intended – and did my best to walk it, spurred on by spirit and by lasting feelings of inner peace that were so pronounced – unlike anything I had ever experienced before – it became a no-brainer to stay the course even as life began to deliver one daunting obstacle after the next!

That said, where does all of this leave me today? 

Well, as of this writing, I am several years into my experiment with The Life Intended. My outer life continues to reflect challenge. My inner life is filled with calm. And I am looking forward to the day when my external reality finally matches my inner reality! May that day be today!

Namaste and God Bless

For my latest blog entry, click here.

For my alternate blog/website, The Life Intended, click here.

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